May 2013
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“I find you so perfect that sometimes I wonder if I really deserve someone like...”
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“Sometimes I feel like I’m always the understanding, pathetic, over-loving...”
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I feel insecure especially when I’m jealous. In other words, you make me feel insecure when you’re with someone else.
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Choices
Sometime in your life there will come a point where you have to choose. Where you have to sacrifice something because you just can’t have everything. It’s not because you’re selfish but it’s because that’s life, and life was never fair to begin with.
April 2013
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Stress
I’ve never been so concerned with my future as I am right now. Too many decisions to make. Too many things to consider. Too many questions unanswered.
Can I have just once have a whole summer that is actually a vacation? So this is how it feels when they say you are at the brink of burning out.
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“Someday, we will be together. Not because we were meant to be together but...”
I could write an entire book talking about my love for you. But I know it wouldn’t be enough to tell how much I do.
I never loved anyone like I loved you. It’s the greatest feeling I’ve ever felt but also the most frightening. It’s unbelievable how much I could love someone but it scares me that anytime I could have my heart broken and maybe I can’t survive it this...
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This waiting game is unnecessarily stretching out for far too long. I’m growing tired of my options. I thought about looking for jobs. I have staggering qualifications and credentials. I can get any job I want, both in private and government firms and institutions. I guess I feel like I’m not ready yet. I still hve to go to school and learn more.
I can just do office works or...
March 2013
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After being a third party of a relationship once, I promised never to involve myself with committed people again. Now here I am, finding myself in the same situation.
Maybe it’s me being competitive or me being attracted to people in a relationship. Or maybe it’s just me being a pathetic bastard.
But oh how I am loving it. I guess i’ll have to prepare my sewing kit and glue guns for another...
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Truth
Life has never promised you anything. Nor has destiny. But people did.
Some said they would never leave you. Lie!
Some said they would love you until death. Lie!
Some said you were the most precious one. Lie!
Life is made of such sweet lies.
All that matters is how you faced the time you finally realized those were just lies.
We may ask, “Wouldn’t life be much better...
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Reasons for no updates. Moving out. MedSchool
Well I’ve been out for vacation for about 3weeks. It wasn’t really a vacation since some of the time I spent looking for universities and good medical schools. An effort which amounted to almost nothing.
I’m back home for now before I go back to Cebu and check on my application status which I am optimistic about. Finally, I will be on my own, in a place with no relatives and few...
February 2013
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My medical school adventures
So it’s been a week since I went here in the capital to look for medical schools and - achieved nothing. Primarily because I was too late for the applications. Well here are the unis I visited.
UST - My first choice. I met all their requirements but applications were closed since Dec2. Expensive tuition and too far from our home so I’ll have to rent a place. Best facilities.
UE - I went...
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I am beat, defeated, frustrated. I took a step and got burned. Now I don’t know where to go. My chest feels is empty, my spirit has left me.
Destiny played its game on me again.
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Muslims and Valentine's Day
I am a Muslim and I celebrate Valentine’s day, Christmas, New Year and other non-muslim holidays and occassions just like every other normal human being. I greet people on such days and sometimes go out or hang-out with people. Now there are these Muslims who believes that a real Muslim should not to celebrate or even greet people on these occassions as it is a “sin,” a sign of...
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January 2013
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"RN" on my name
Finally after a month of dreadful waiting, the PNLE results are out and I am one of the passers. One of the 17,000 passers, good luck with the job hunt, I not taking part of the dog fight. I guess I deserve a pat on the back. Job well done Zac! I was expecting to be more relieved and maybe euphoric but I’m actually not feeling anything… Wow… What’s wrong with me.
Nonetheless, that’s another...
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Unlabeled life crisis
So I don’t really know how to call the crisis I’m in right now. You know there is teenage crisis, mid-life crisis and all that, how exactly do you call a crisis at the age of 22? Adult crisis? Post-graduate crisis? All my years reading psychology textbooks, not one book ever mentioned about crisis at this age, I should make a thesis about this someday.
Basically the crisis I’m in right now is...
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captrogers:
apparently tumblr is unfollowing people so please let me know if i unfollowed you okay thanks
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I was ready to cross the bridge to get to you but you chose to cut the rope that holds it and let the the slice on the earth keep us apart. Leaving me there at the edge of the cliff not knowing if I should turn back around or jump off to oblivion. In the end I stayed there waiting and hoping for you to change your mind and come back waving at me on the other side. Jumping off was stupid, turning...
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Weirdest dream
Warning: Gore and Violence
I dreamed I was in the optometrist to have another pair of specs made. I sat in the chair stairing at the Snellen’s chart with the empty phoropter in my eyes. The optometrist must be taking her time choosing the right lense for me. I never saw her face, her back was turned on me. I can only see her smack gown and her golden hair. She doesn’t seem to move, she was just...
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Tonight I lie in bed feeling pathetic because I miss you so much it hurts.
The ball inside my throat I can’t swallow. The cold creeping in my bones I can’t rub off. The stubborn memories that won’t stay at the back of head.
I need you tonight, just like every night. But just like every night, I lie alone in my bed praying for the sleep that wouldn’t come and hoping...
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